Have you ever done a handstand? ^_^
I used to do them when I was younger. It was one of those acrobatic things I had tried on my own during my younger days just to shake off that nerdiness image that I always had.
And then something happened. During one of my random practise at the void deck of my flat, I lost balance and hit the concrete floor hard with the head. Not sure if there was a concussion, but I sat there stunned for a long while. A while later, I felt huge sharp pain at my head. I didn't cry, but I did have a little naggy feeling that I hurt my brains somehow.
I stopped doing handstands after the incident. And took up hiphop instead of being a breakdancer. I guess it's safer.
Growing up, I was very bad at remembering stuffs. I wasn't sure if it was due to the handstand accident, but I conveniently attributed that as the reason, an explanation to justify my lack of memory. I never told anyone about it, it's a little secret that my parents do not even know. Can't recall if I told Wifey though.
Having a lousier memory and shorter attention span than my peers, I grew up having to work harder than the rest.
During studying, I couldn't memorise alot of things, so had to put extra attention to understanding them, be it Maths formulas or science theories. This meant that I had to spend more time than the rest, but I was a boring guy, so it didn't matter.
At work, I'm often seen with pen and paper during meetings, because taking down follow ups is a must. It also makes me a bad multi-tasker, I tend to only remember the latest task that I was asked to work on, if I never write them down.
When socialising with friends, or talking with Wifey, I always make it a point to be specially attentive during conversations. It's basic courtesy. But there are many cases when I just forgot what I asked minutes ago, and re-ask the question. Sometimes I think this give others the impression that I didn't listen to their answers. It's really not the case. =(
Sometimes I'm not sure whether it's a bad memory, or I have selective memory. Maybe it's just psychological? I don't know. After all, I remember alot about my childhood and my past. But when it comes to smaller things, I tend to have short-term memory loss.
I consider my memory limitation as a handicap. I have the brains, just with limited ability to remember stuffs. But I am determined to minimise the disruption to my life caused by this inconvenience.
And though I have stopped doing handstands for so many many years, deep down inside, I want to do them again someday.
Just not on a concrete floor.